BEHIND THE HEART

I am a firm believer that there aren’t many bad people on this our earth- just bad behaviour. As a result of this I am usually very empathetic and I try not to judge people harshly. I know that most individuals have learnt their behaviour because it seemed to be their best option under their circumstances. I know this not only because of Psychology but because I also learnt most of my behaviour.
I grew up a brightand happy child in an upper middle class family. My life was stable and secure until one day everything began to collapse like a pack of cards. I went out in the morning with my mother and sisters. We spent most of the day together until about 3pm. She went back to finish her day’s tasks but by the next day she was dead. I was just 13years. I didn’t recover from that shock before I had to learn to be tough for my sisters and my father because I was the oldest child. I learnt to carry on with life wearing a mask of calmness and confidence while the child in me was perplexed and afraid.
At this very vulnerable point in my life, I needed to change schools. For some reason or the other, the students in the new school didn’t like me. I experienced the worst form of rejection and unkindness but I learnt to fight back with anger and aggression because that was the only way I knew to cope.
As if that was not enough my family suffered a huge financial set-back a few years later, towards the end of my teenage years. From a life-style of comfort I experienced penury. We could no longer afford the things I was used to. Almost immediately all the ‘friends’ we had when I was growingup abandoned us because we no longer fit their profile. I was angry, bitter and very resentful.I had to learn to cover-up my misery and aloneness with a lot of roistering.While I struggled hard to keep up with the ‘Joneses’, my self-esteem and self-worth plummeted with alacrity. I began to need everyone’s affirmation and validation.
I don’t know what might have happened if I didn’t meet Jesus at this point in my life. He brought with Him acceptance and tenderness – my healing commenced.He was the most peaceful place in my life.He comforted me with such a comfort that I developed a passion to share comfortwith others- this is why I am committed to BEHIND THE HEART.
Most people do not realize that a lot of their weaknesseshave an origin and a root cause. As a result of this, they have paid undue attention to the symptoms, ignoring the cause. I have walked that path too and I know that until the roots are tackled, most of the ‘baggage’ remains. So now backed with professional, personal and spiritual experience, I trust that through BEHIND THE HEART one will be able to help most people identify, confront and conquer their core heart issues so that they may quit chasing after the wind and begin to enjoy the gift of life, love and people.
I write with a lot of openness and candour because I am no longer afraid of who I am.So loosen up, roll up your sleeve and go behind your heart with me. I look forward to a pleasurable trip!!